Last winter, former Bad Boy recording artist G-Dep walked into a NYPD precinct in Harlem and turned himself in for a murder that he committed in 1993. In a recent interview with XXL, G-Dep took readers through his thought process behind his decision to come clean.
“It was an ongoing thing. It wasn’t one of those things where I said, Okay, I’m going to just do it. I was thinking about it for a while. That day, I did an interview for this public-access show. Right after that, I decided to just go ahead to the precinct.
I remember, in the precinct, when everything transpired, [the police officer] gave me a phone to call my daughter’s mother. I was like, “Yeah, I’m going to have to go down for this, go through the system and all of that.” So that was the first taste of just realizing that it’s a wrap.
I felt like I was going to go through the same thing again—being happy, enjoying food and family—and I still didn’t handle what I thought I needed to. The reason why I probably did that at that time is I wanted…I couldn’t really continue to move on. I couldn’t move on and keep trying to satisfy myself if I didn’t deal with that.
I didn’t feel like I could keep going on, living my life—indulging in life and feeling the highs and lows and just basking in what I thought was a good life—knowing what I did affected someone else’s life. It was the fact that I had children that I thought about stuff like that. I didn’t feel it was fair. I just wanted to take care of that, and have some resolve for the situation. I didn’t know what was going to be the outcome, but that was the only way I knew to deal with it.”